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i think that my least favorite feeling is being disappointed in the people i truly care about. A really does mean the world to me; that one person who i would stop time for if i could. but consistently, she lets herself down. lets me down. and would let down all the people who she doesn't let into her world in the first place. she gets tossed around and told whose boss and sometimes im not even sure if she remembers how to stand on her own two feet. did she ever even learn how to in the first place? this has all just become way too normal for her that im not even sure if she realizes that she deserves so much more. im there for her; the one who will tell her to stand up to the bad people, but if i keep getting run all over i dont know how long ill be able to be there. lighter notes; -i talked to my wonderful Uganda today! it was his 23rd birthday. $10 for a phone card -- so well worth it. it had been so long since ive heard so many "mmms" and "so nices" in one conversations. he cried when i told him who it was and when i said i had to go. we tried to pack a million stories into those 16 minutes. not enough time. never enough. -C and M never cease to amaze me. C, even amongst her temper tantrums, is so consistently there for me when i need it most. sometimes even when i haven't even told her so. Im so proud of M. she's come so far and inspires me daily. she tells me all the time how much ive done for her but im not sure if she realizes that the feeling is just so mutual! -i neglected all the things that i should of done today for coffee with J and M (and then chinese spherical delights (hah!) with M). i kinda needed that, although i should of been studying. but it was worth it. ------ sometimes gulutown seems like just too much of a blur to of happened. oh and i went to the  
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